And we created you in pairs 78:8
Among my friends, I saw they are about to choose what kind
of men they want to spend their life, their dream wedding, their dream wedding
dress, etc. Frankly speak, I don’t have that kind of dreams. I choose not to
have that kind of dreams.
Afraid? Yes. Skeptical? Yes. I choose to be rational, when
it is about feelings. When I saw others’ relationship, I always said to myself,
fairytales never happen. Love, live happily ever after won’t happen, nowadays.
The scariest thing is, to let my children know how it feels
to be abandoned, left and forgotten. Let them choose who they need to live with
if their parent gets divorced. Whether their mother or their father. And if
they choose one of them, another one will think, “Oh my child hates me/my child
think that I am wrong/ my child will tell the other parent about my weaknesses”
dan akhirnya, anak lah yang memegang semua kesalahan ibu bapa mereka. Anaklah
yang menanggung, but they don’t even have anyone that they can tell how it
feels, how hurt they are, their parents…..might have their new lover, their
family to speak how hurt it is having a broken relationship…but for the kids?
Do they have anyone? Want to tell their friends? They might be too young to
know how it feels. Beritahu ibu/bapa? Mereka punya masalah lagi besar. Beritahu
pakcik/makcik? They might don’t take any part of it, because it is YOUR family
problems. So the children need to decide on their own, whether they choose to
be someone better or worse than that.
Masya Allah, aren’t you afraid of our
nowadays ummah? L
it is because building a marriage based on taknak buat maksiat, nak ada orang
sayang, nak ada orang jaga, nak jaga hati/pandangan & so on (Which makes em looks like getting married because of their nafs/desires).
Maybe I am the one, being so skeptical about a marriage.
(People will think that I am opposed of a marriage) No! I am not..I just think
that to build a marriage, even to build a relationship..we need to choose the
real one (Based on this video) it is not because being so picky, but it is
about how a simple akad will turn someone’s life. Whether the marriage will
turn them into a beautiful sakinah,mawaddah, warrahmah family, or vice versa. It is a great responsibility as a moslem, to
create new ummah, not to destroy them.
Why I am saying this? Because I am one among the children
that know how it feels to live a broken marriage. How hard it is to struggle
each years, each days, each seconds. Out of more than 16 of my uncles and
aunties, only one of them that trying so hard to understand me. Listen to all
my stories masya Allah, thanks to you, bless CikMat & CikNa, protect them.
And I am grateful enough, Allah brings me back to HIM. Allah Always remind me
of HIS presence, HIS love. And HE gives me someone that I inspires so much. It
is true when people said, love makes us alive. I don’t need to own the love,
but I just need to feel it to keep on take another step in my life.
"Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: "We believe," and will not be tested."
Surah Al-Ankabut, ayat 2.
"Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: "We believe," and will not be tested."
Surah Al-Ankabut, ayat 2.